Just something Im doing on tumblr.

[Morgan]

Im doing the 30 Day Self Harm Challenge and then Im going to probably do the 30 Day Eating Disorder Challenge. I can say a lot more on this site and not worry about people seeing it than I can on Tumblr, so Im going to post them here too. If you guys want to join, check back every day and put your post.

30 day self harm challenge
1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
3. What is your motivation to recover?
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
6. What about it do you enjoy?
7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.
8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
9. Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.
10. How do you feel about your scars?
11. Strangest place (school, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?
12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of them?)
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?
14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?
16. What advice would you give to someone about self harm?
17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
19. List 5 reasons that recovery is worth it.
20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.
21. Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
23. What is your favorite inspirational quote?
24. What are some of your main triggers? Why?
25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?
26. What is something that makes you the most happy?
27. Discuss any and all progress you have made.
28. What short-term goals do you have?
29. Do you follow any self-harm blogs?
30. Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on.
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30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day One.
How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
I’ve been self harming for three years now. The reason why I started wasn’t because of school, friends, being bullied, family problems or anything. I started self harming when I was in an abusive relationship that lasted for over two years. I was abused almost every day when I was with this guy. he told me every day I was worthless, I deserved it, and that I could never leave him and if I did he would find me and do worse things to me than he had ever done before. Since then I’ve wanted to die, I’ve tried to kill myself, and I’ve been cutting, scratching, and burning. It took me two years to get up the confidence to finally leave and find someone who really does care for me.
Thomas has been there for me ever since. He knows what has happened to me and he accepts it. He doesn’t look at me differently. He has helped me so much. I told him that I wanted to stop but I couldn’t do it alone. He promised to be with me every step of the way and he has. He makes sure Im okay, he is always there if I need someone to talk to, and he wants me to get better. He knows I’m trying and right now, thats all i can do…

[Jenna]

Day One

I've been on and off for a few years now. It started at the beginning of seventh grade, so I guess two and a half years or so ago. I can't remember if there was a particular thing that made me start, but I do know that before I started I had been thinking about it for a while. I had felt worthless and wanted to kill myself for a whole and I finally decided that cutting myself would be a better alternative to killing myself. I hate myself for starting. I relapse all the time.

[Morgan]

Relapsing is the worst! You're all proud of yourself for stopping and you feel like you're starting to be normal, and happy again and that you're finally going to stop and then you look at the blade, you play with it in your fingers and you see the light glisten off of it and you go back. You take it to your skin again. The when you realize what you did you hate your self. You can't believe that you started again. You were doing so good and then you were stupid and picked up that damn blade again and pressed the silver wonder against your skin again, to feel it again. You can't believe you were so stupid to go and do it again. You get mad at yourself and keep cutting, keep slicing, and soon you can't stop and the road to receiving starts all over.

I should know..Ive relapsed almost twenty five times in the past three years..

I'm here for you Jenna, and I always will be.

[Jenna]

I totally know that feeling. All I ever do is fucking relapse. I almost relapsed last night, but I (thankfully) managed to ignore the urges.

As I'm always here for you, Morgan.

[Morgan]

I've given all of my blades up, well sort of. My boyfriend self harms as well and we promised each other we would stop together. the last time we saw each other we brought all our blades. I gave mine to him and he gave his to mine and we got rid of them together.
Right now Im making recovery bracelets for me and him.

I struggle with
-Anxiety
-Anorexia
-Bulimia
-Self Harm
-Suicidal attempts and thoughts
-Depression
-Bipolar Disorder (Diagnosed, I don't think I have it though..)

Thomas struggles with
-Drug Abuse
-Anorexia
-Self Harm
-Suicidal attempts and thoughts
-Depression
-Mood disorders(Diagnosed but doesn't believe he has it)

I make things to help me..I write and sing and it all helps..and having someone there for you helps too.

[Taylor]

There is no way I'll keep up with this, but
Day One:

Spoiler:

[Morgan]

Aw Taylor ):
Im here for you, I always will be. Promise.

[Taylor]

Thank you <3
And I'm here for both of you. I think you guys have my number? (If not message me for it) and seriously text/message me anytime you need to.

[Morgan]

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day Two

-What part of your body is most affected by it?

I'd have to say that my thighs are most affected by my self harm. I rarely cut my arms because I sleep in tank tops and wouldn't want my parents to see the cuts. I'm always wearing jeans and then in the summer all of my shorts cover where the cuts are. Its easy to hide, well until i wear a bathing suit...

[Jenna]

Day Two.

I change locations every time I relapse, but the area that I cut the most are my thighs. I can cover them fairly easily, so it all works out.

[Morgan]

I love you Jenna. <3

[Taylor]

Day two;

Spoiler:

[Jenna]

Day Three.

My motivation to get better is my Drill team. They don't mnow about my self harm and I don't want them to find out. I don't want them to think of me any differently. Instant to stop so that I don't have to let them down if they see them.

[Morgan]

30 Day Self Harm Challenge Day 3:

What is your motivation to recover?

My motivation to recover is my boyfriend Thomas. Yeah yeah, dumb reason right? Other than Thomas my motivation to recover is my three year old nephew Hayden. The last time I saw him I had some self inflicted cuts on my wrists. Me and him where playing around and then he saw them, held my hand, looked at the cuts then at me before he leaned down and kissed them softly. He turned his bright blue eyes up to me, smiled and giggled "Morgan's boo-boos better!" He is my rock even though he is only three. I want him to see the world isn't horrible. I want to show him that I am strong. I want him to see that no matter how hard life may be you can still over come it all. I want to be better for him.

[Jenna]

Day 4.

I consider myself addicted. Every time I relapse I remember the free feeling so I keep going until I've completely ruined whatever part of my body that I was attacking that time. I crave it a lot, foo. So.

[WalrusFaces (Layla)]

Hey guys, I guess I should open up too since the rest of you are.

Day One:
I started towards the middle of seventh grade. I had always thought terribly of myself. Id just never had the source to do anything. I was insecure, afraid, uncomfortable. I hated everything about myself. My life at home didn't do much for my mental stability. No one ever stuck around for long. And when they did it was never for the right reasons. I felt as if I wasn't worth anything to anyone. Its been 6 months since the last time I cut. Ive thought about it. Almost relapsed a couple times but I stopped myself. Not without the support of friends though. I doubt they even know how many times theyve interrupted me in some way before I could. My therapist says to take it like AA. Dont think about never cutting again. Just not today. It kinda works. But its hard to think youre a good person or worth anything when no one sticks around.

[Jenna]

Got behind. Oops.

Day Five.

The thing I hate the most about selfharm is how I feel like I have to keep doing it. To prove something to myself.

Day Six.

I like most the empowering feeling I get when I do it.

Day Seven.

1. Listen to music
2. Read
3. Lay down in the dark
4. Do homework
5. Eat
6. Talk to my best friend
7. Take a shower

That's all I have.

[WalrusFaces (Layla)]

Day Two:

Alot of its on my upper thighs and the underside of my arm. I almost always wear hoodies and pants.

[Taylor]

I got really far behind. Jeez.

Day Three;

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Day Four;

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Day Five;

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Day Six;

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Day Seven;

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[WalrusFaces (Layla)]

Day Three

My motivation is my friends. The ones like Sauske, Ethan, Kenny. All of them are so wonderful. I dont want them to think any less of me or look at me like im psychotic. Another motivation would be Tanner. Hes such an honest and sweet person. He knows I used to be cut dependent. He keeps me so happy that sometimes I almost forget the feeling. Almost.

[Jenna]

Day Eight.

I don't honestly know. Most people just go,"Please stop," when they find out. That's why I try to not let anyone find out because I don't like telling them I will. Whatever.

[Taylor]

Day Eight;

Spoiler:

Day Nine;

Spoiler:

[WalrusFaces (Layla)]

Day four:

I consider myself a recovering addict. I used to be extremely addicted to it. But Its been almost 5 months since the last time I did. I still get the urge to cut sometimes though. Its a lot harder to resist when im by myself. I cant really trust myself to be left alone with my thoughts because they always lead to that.

[Jenna]

Day Nine.

I have. I did it to show myself how bad I fucked up myself. I've long since deleted the pictures of them, but yea

[WalrusFaces (Layla)]

Day Five:
The after affect it has. Like after youve done it and suddenly it hits you. You just gave in. Some people think that it makes you strong. Those people are stupid. Others think it makes you weak. Also stupid. It just makes you sadder and even more depressed than before. And I hate that feeling.

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